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Babies??

As I have said before I want this to be my safe place where I can talk about what is going on in my head. Well what is going on is not a happy place at the moment. 
My fiancee and I have been trying to have a baby for over 2 years now and still nothing. I am not going to lie I have been at my lowest point over this time, I feel like I am the one who is at fault. 
Since setting the date for the wedding we haven't been trying, as knowing my luck it would be when I got pregnant and we wouldn't be able to save for both. Although after going to the doctors a while ago I got an appointment to go and have some test done to see what is going on. I am honestly so scared. I think it is because as long as I hadn't seen a specialist in my head I can think what I like, but once I have been and the doctor has the results, I have to face the reality. 
Since booking the appointment I have been getting upset when I am around children. A few weeks ago myself and Paul were in a lift with three …