As most (if not all) people will know the 10th October was Mental Health Day. It is a full day where you can be aware of mental health issues. My biggest issue is why does it takes a day to acknowledge peoples mental health.
Anyone who has been reading my blog for a while will know, I was diagnosed with Anxiety and Depression when I was 21. Since being told it wasn't just me being a weirdo and there was an explanation for why I was the way I was, I have felt so much better. My next step was to figure out my triggers and how to avoid them or overcome them when I cant avoid them.
9 years have passed and to be honest yes I do still find it hard, I struggle a lot with paranoia in my normal life and in my relationship. My anxiety I have found over the last few months is starting to get a lot harder to deal with, I have been having a few panic attacks, or finding it hard to focus and to breath. I have this anxiety tic sort of thing that I do, it is very hard to describe in words, but I rub my hands together and hold my breath. Its very hard to explain, but it sort of helps.
I am currently having other health problems so I am also stressing over them which doesn't help because they make me even more anxious. My depression at the moment hasn't reared its ugly head, but I am guess it is only round the corner.
The reason I am writing this and telling you about myself is because I am not the only person out there who is suffering, if it is happening to me that it is happening to other people and I want you to know you are not alone. There is always someone here for you to talk to or to just be a shoulder to cry on.
If you ever feel the need to talk you can message me or you can also go to any of these places:
Mind - https://www.mind.org.uk/
Sane - https://www.mind.org.uk/
The Samaritans - https://www.samaritans.org/
You can also go to your GP they will have all the information that you can ask for. They will also be someone you can speck to, the first doctor I spoke to was my university doctor, and to be honest he wasn't very sympathetic. Although my own doctor from back home was so supportive, she listened to me and took it very seriously, she put me in touch with a group that gave me CBT which is Cognitive Behavioural Therapy. It helped a lot because it gave me a chance to rethink how I was thinking and understand how my mind worked.
My biggest bit of advise for you though would be do not keep it in, even if you message the Samaritans, it is totally anonymous so there isn't someone judging you, you can talk to them and they can be someone you can turn to and talk to, just incase you ever need a shoulder.
I hope this post has been able to help you.
See you soon
Lots of Love