Showing posts with label New Year. Show all posts
Showing posts with label New Year. Show all posts

Tuesday, 1 January 2019


I have always thought that ''New Year New Me'' is a bit s**t, I don't think you should need to wait for the 1st January to make any changes. 

 That being said, I am making a bit of a change to my life this year. As many of you know, Paul and I have been trying for a baby for a very long time (3 years in May to be precises). I have had appointments with doctors and they have said that the only way for us to get any kind of IVF treatment or medical help with getting pregnant is for me to loose some weight. To be exact 6 stone!

On 5th December I weighed myself and I was 16 stone, since then I have lost 9 lbs, although the last time I weighed myself was boxing day and I have eaten so many goodies since then so I may have gained this week but that is ok. I want everyone to understand I am still very body positive and very happy right now with how my body looks. I also have one thought that follows me everyday and that is that I want a baby. 

I know people will say but plus size women have babies all the time, which is true, but try telling any women who has been trying for nearly 3 years to relax and it will happen. I have tired just trying, I have tried tracking ovulation, I have tried not think about it. Trust me this is the LAST option I wanted to take. As I said before I am happy with who I am right now, I don't feel that I HAVE to loose weight, I want to and being body positive is all about accepting any body at any size. 

If you would like to follow my journey to loosing weight and trying for a baby you can follow it here.

Something else I am going to do this year is begin a new section to my blog. A topic I have always been interested in is murderers, which I understand some people will think is weird but oh well, I love it. It is going to be called Mid Month Murderer and I got the idea from a new youtube channel I have began to watch. A women called Stephanie Harlowe, she is a Youtuber who has a weekly video called Mystery Monday, and she talks about murder mysteries and also recently has began to look into Cults (which is my next venture). I will link her channel here, so you can go and check her out. My first murderer I will be looking into is Nannie Doss AKA The Giggling Granny, in the middle of January, so keep your eyes peeled for that. 

That is it for now as an update and I hope that you understand my reasons behind loosing weight. I will be back soon. 

Lots of Love 


Saturday, 9 June 2018

Looking Forward

Normally posts at the beginning of the year are all about what happened last year, what went well for me, what didn't, what I wanna change and what things that will stay the same but not for me, not anymore.

I want to look forward in this post, not back. Things have happened in the last year and they have made me who I am now. They have brought me to where I am now and I am greatful for them. 

So looking forward to this year I have two HUGE things happening, firstly in April I turn 30 (yes I know I look like I'm about 12 but yes I am 30 this year). 2nd I get married in July. I also want to do a lot more this year, I want to read more, I want to write more, I want to have more fun. I don't want to take things to seriously anymore. I stressed way too much last year and it got me into such a bad place. 

I'm not going to set myself goals or anything I just want to list what I want to do and maybe set targets but not take them too serious, so I suppose they will be something to aim for rather then something that I NEED to get to so these are the things I want to do :

- Read 6 books - I love reading but I am a slow reader so it does take me a while to read things, so if I do 1 for 2 months that is good enough for me. 

- 1 Blog a week - 
November I was doing 2 blogs a week and I liked it but if I aim for 1 blog a week and can do better then that is brill. 

- 2 videos on my youtube a month - 
I was doing 1 video a week, but I am no good with camera equipment, so Paul normally helps me by filming my videos, so if we don't get a lot of days off together I cant film, so 2 videos a month is a good start (till Paul can teach me how to work the camera. 

- Try and work with more brands/bloggers -
 I loved doing collaborations last year, first with ''From Maisie'' Emma is such a lovely person and I was so happy when she said that she would like to work together with me. Then with Krista from A Beautiful Mind 4 Me, where I did a guest blog about my mental health. I loved working with those lovely ladies and want to do so much more this year. 

I think that is enough for me at the moment, if I feel I can add anything I will, but the main thing for me is that I don't take things too seriously and get stressed out, especially around July for my wedding. 

I am excited about this coming year, I want it to happen quick but I also don't want it to rush past me.

So what are your plans for the new year? 

Have a Brill new year
Lots of Love 

Friday, 13 October 2017

Last 3 Months of 2017

As much as I am in denial, 2017 is swiftly coming to an end. So with only 3 months left I want to do a little bucket list of the end of the year to see how many of these things I get done before the year is out.

These little quarterly (ish) lists are good just to keep you on track and to show how much you can and cant do. Anything I don't get done I will move them over to the next three months and so on.

- Finish Megan Jayne Crabbes book ''Body Positive Power''
    I got this book at Curve Fashion Festival and being a bit of a slow reader it is taking me a while to finish it but honestly I don't think a book has touched me as much as this one has. Megan should honestly be the person who goes round schools telling pupils and teenagers that they need to embrace their bodies. She is an unbelievable human being who is such a sweet person and who needs to get a million stars for being so good. She has made me look at my body in such a different way, I no longer feel that I have to be anything but me. If I want to eat Krispy Kremes, dairy milks and Maccies all in one day I bloody well will. This is my body and I will do what I want, if I want to spend the day eating a salad and drinking water I bloody well will because it it my body and I will do what I want with it. No one has the right to tell you how to live and Megan explains this in the book as well as little exercises to give you a little kick up the bum to accepting your body as it is.

- Second get a passport.
     Yes to peoples shock and amazement I have never been on a plane (insert gasp here). I have been out the country I have been to France twice and I have also been skiing in Italy, but when I was 18 I was mugged and my passport was in my bag and I have never gotten a replacement. With me getting married next year I need a passport to prove I am who I say I am, so I suppose I better get my but moving with this one.

-Third Do more YouTube
   YouTube is something I have ALWAYS loved, I watch so many people, so I finally took the plunge last month to start filming myself, at this moment I have 3 videos on my computer ready to be edited but I am a bit scared. One is a Lush haul which is fine with, one is a vlog when we went to Dunham Massey, and the last is a make up tutorial, that is were I get scared. I know I am opening myself up to critasisum when I make videos but I worry people will just slate me for how I do my make up. So the video is made up of me saying over and over ''This is how I do my make up I am not a make up artist this is just what works for me' which is all I kept saying. So maybe I just need to get over my fear and just do it. I think my target for the end of the year is to upload another 12 videos, so 1 per week for the rest of the year. So watch this space.

-Forth Getting into a proper skin care routine
   I normally have good skin, I don't get breakouts, I have a bit of redness but apart from that I have good skin....Till now that is, over the last week or so I have been getting spots and breakouts. I think its because I am breaking the number 1 rule in make up and going to bed with my make up on! I now its a shock but I bet I am not the only person who does it. I am trying at the moment to get into a routine of getting in from where ever I have been and if I know I wont be going back out, taking my make up off and washing my face properly, also using a scrub twice a week, just to make my skin feel a bit better. The scrub I am using at the moment is the Nip n Fab scrub, you only need to tiniest amount and trust me you can feel it working. I got this one free in a goodie back at Curve Fashion Festival but this will be repurchased.  

I think 4 things in 3 months is enough for me at the moment. So keep an eye on this blog in the new year and lets see how I have kept up with this little bucket list.

See you soon
Love you Lots

Saturday, 2 January 2016

Happy New Year

Hi Guys

Hope your all ok.

I'M BACK!!!!

I am so sorry you haven't heard from me for a rather long time, I have been having the busiest time with work. Also personal problems have popped up which means I have been neglecting you and my blog so much, but I am back now and with new ideas on posts.

I hope everyone had a lovely Christmas and you don't have too much of a headache after New Years Eve.

Let me tell you about what's happened over the last few months. Me and Paul finally have the house looking how we want and then the guttering outside the spare room decided to get all clogged and we had a huge leak all down the inside wall, we have to wait till it airs out and drys to do anything.
I had my first trip to Manchester trafford centre and I loved it. Paul has got a car for a few months so we can go on lots of day trips yay!!

My health hasn't really been good, not my physical health but my mental one. I have briefly mentioned this on my blog before but never gone into much detail but I suffer from Depression and anxiety, these last few months its been bad, and I haven't really wanted to do anything. I have tried different things to take my mind off of it but nothing has really helped.

I was first diagnosed with it 5 years ago and before I moved to warrington it was so bad that I was going to a support group. Being here now I took the decision that I wouldn't ask for help or go to the doctors and I am regreting that now. So this year I will go to the doctors and ask for help I will try and stop thinking I can deal with it alone when I don't have to. The hardest part for me is asking. To me it's like admitting I can't do something and I hate thinking that about myself, but I need to take care of myself as well and if that means asking for help then I will.

What else has happened??? Ooo I own my own business. I am now a Younique presenter, I thought to myself "well I love make up so much I may as well sell it" haha.

I have had a lovely Christmas spent up north with Pauls family and then went to Birmingham and had another one with mine so its been a really good few days.

I suppose as well as being a welcome back post this is a wrap up of 2015 too.

What would I like 2016 to bring? I suppose good mental health, organisation, blogging, make up, new friends, old friends, and above all fun (oh god how cheesey do i sound lol).

See you soon.
Lots of Love