Girls Please Read
Hi Guys and Gals
This is going to be a bit of a wordy blog but it is very important that you take a few minutes to read it guys so please read on.
In the UK once you reach the age of 25 you are meant to go for a cervical smear, I had been putting mine off for so long, but one day when I was with the nurse I spoke to her about it, she managed to calm my nerves and I booked an appointment for a few days later.
So I went in and saw another nurse, who talked me through what was involved. I wont give u all of the gory details, all I will say is it is nothing compared to what I was worrying about, I was so scared it was going to hurt and all kinds of things, but trust me its doesn't. Yes ok it is a little uncomfortable, but no pain.
So I left and thought omg how easy was that, I sort of got on with work and didn't really think about it because I had a lot of work to do.
I got home one night and I saw the letter, I opened it and all I could see was the word ''abnormal''. I couldn't focus on anything else, all I could see was this word and I started to panic. I gave the letter to my mom and she read it, she tried to clam me down by saying that they didn't know what it was and so it could be nothing.
It turned out that I had something call low grade dyskaryosis and the cells they had taken on the smear had been infected, they didn't know how many cells were effected tho.
The letter said they had booked me an appointment for a coloscopy which is a very big word for a magnifying glass, it gives the doctor a better view of your cervix, to see how many of my cells were infected, and which treatment I would need to sort this out.
There were three out comes of this procedure, CIN1 where only a small amount of cells are infected, they can sometimes leave these to sort themselves out as the body will fight off the infection by itself. CIN2 mean a little more cells are infected and I may need treatment, CIN3 means a lot of my cells are infected and I would defiantly need treatment to remove the infection. What I would like to point out now is that this is NOT a sign that I have cancer, it is a sign of cells that can possibly develop into cancer, the doctors are not looking for cancer just things that could possibly lead to it.
I am not gonna lie, I was petrified, I have never been so scared in my life, and the weeks leading up to the coloscopy were some of the worst of my life.
On the day I went to the Womens hospital in Birmingham, and was shown into the room by the nurse, I was put into this big chair, with stirrups in, I put my legs on them and lay back, the chair lifted and to be honest the only thing I was thinking the entire time was ''OMG everyone in this room can see my foof right now''.
The nurse was lovely she was asking me normal question but was also talking me through what the doctor was doing. Then out of no where the nurse said ''Ok the doctor is going to take a biopsy now'' my heart sort of skipped a beat, I had no idea he was going to take a biopsy, and it scared me so much, the nurse told me I would feel a pinch, and the first time they did it, it was just that sort of like having a needle prick but obviously in a more sensitive place.
Ok so this may put a few people off but please don't let it this is just my experience. The next biopsy was totally different, I wasn't prepared for it and it was a shock and felt so much more painful then the first, imagine about 3 needles all in one spot, it really did hurt, at this point I ended up jumping and then nurse sort of had to grab me and calm me down and tell me it would be ok. Of course all I was thinking was 'ye right easy for you to say I bet no one has shoved a needle in you foof before!' But of course I was polite and just sort of winced at her.
Once it was over they put this mustardy colour paste there to stop any bleeding as it recovered itself.
The doctor told me that I would be fine to return to work and that I would get some pain that was like a period pain and that I should just take my normal pain relief.
The next day was uncomfortable but I took my pain killers and it seemed to ease off. The Friday tho it sort of hit me like a truck, I went into work and ended up crying in front of one of the girls I work with, when the other team leader came in she said for me to phone the doctors since I might have an infection.
That afternoon I went into the doctors and she said that my cervix may have gone into shock because of what it had happened, since the cervix is the most sensitive part of my body, she told me I need to rest and relax, she gave me a week off work and some antibiotics, since it turned out that yes I had an infection, and said if the pain hadn't gone by three days later I was to go in and see her.
Tomorrow is the last day I am to take the antibiotics and I am still in a little pain, not as much as I was but still in pain.
I was told I was going to hear of my test results in the next couple of weeks and I'm not gonna lie I am so scared, it is like being at the top of a cliff and not knowing whats gonna happen, its that scared feeling you get when someone says 'we need to talk' I constantly have a lump in my throat and I know it wont go until I hear back.
The reason I have written this blog is because I want to make all girls aware that this is something that can happen to anyone. I am 26 years old I should have gone to my first smear last year and I didn't and I was an idiot because of it.
September is Gynecological awareness month and I am wanting to raise as much awareness as possible.
There is a campaign going on at the moment called #nofeargosmear
below are a few links to look at :
Please Please girls if you are in the age for your countries to go get this done then please do, if you are younger but you think there is a problem go and see your doctor, they will not judge you or make you feel silly. They are there to help us, so please girls go!!!
Love you lots