Friday, 31 October 2014

Health Update

Health Update

Hi guys 

I hope your all doing really good, I just wanted to give you a little update on my health situation. 

Ok so my last post I told you all how I was on my last day on my antibiotics, well I was still in a lot of pain last week, I also found that my tummy was getting swollen, I mean I know I'm a curvy girl but you know when something is wrong, as well as that i also was going dizzy so i decided to go back to the doctors. 

 My doctors is a big surgery as so you tend to see lots of different doctors, which can sometimes be a bit of a pain in the bum, explaining everything to two or three different doctors, but I went in and saw the new doctor.

 He ended up giving me an internal examination, which by the way was embarrassing since he was a rather cute doctor, he took a couple of swobs to go for testing, and ended up telling me I had an infection and the swelling of my tummy and the dizziness was all to do with the infection in my cervix. 

 He put me on two lots of new antibiotics and also an anti inflammatory to help my tummy to stop swelling up, he then gave me another few days off. 

So it is Tuesday today and I am due back to work on Thursday so I thought to get used to being at work little by little I would go for walks and things to build myself up for work. Yesterday I had gone for a walk and my tummy started getting really bad cramps in the afternoon so I wanted to check with the doctor what pain killers I could take to deal with the pain. 

 I called the doctor today and this is where I am getting quite angry, I spoke to a very nice doctor, he is the doctor who started the surgery and what he told me has really made me mad. When I first had my colposcopy the clinic said i would be able to get back to work the following day, the next doctor told me to rest for a week, and then the next told me to take the new medication and rest. So today I spoke to another doctor,  he told me he didn't understand why I hadn't been signed off for more time then I had been, that what I had been through was very hard on my body and that I needed to rest, and that sometimes these things can take up to 3 weeks to recover from, so not only was the clinic wrong but I have now been signed off work for another few days to rest. 

I told one of my friends about this and she defiantly hit the nail on the head with saying the right hand doesn't know what the left is doing and that I could have cause myself more damage, I am really not happy. I don't know what to do now apart from rest which is what I have been doing. 

I am so angry, I cant go back to work, I feel like a let down to the guys I work with because I honestly want to go back, but I know if I do I am going to be in so much pain. 

 I am going to be hearing off of my doctor on Friday to have a follow up talk and to give me my test results from the swobs he took, so maybe I can talk to him about it a little more, but I am really not happy 

Have any of you ever been through this??? If so maybe you can email me at 

this is my new email for my blog, if you have any questions or any advice or even if you would like to request a blog for me to do then email me :D

I hope you guys have a great few days 

Talk soon 



Girls Please Read

Hi Guys and Gals

This is going to be a bit of a wordy blog but it is very important that you take a few minutes to read it guys so please read on. 

In the UK once you reach the age of 25 you are meant to go for a cervical smear, I had been putting mine off for so long, but one day when I was with the nurse I spoke to her about it, she managed to calm my nerves and I booked an appointment for a few days later. 

 So I went in and saw another nurse, who talked me through what was involved. I wont give u all of the gory details, all I will say is it is nothing compared to what I was worrying about, I was so scared it was going to hurt and all kinds of things, but trust me its doesn't. Yes ok it is a little uncomfortable, but no pain. 

So I left and thought omg how easy was that, I sort of got on with work and didn't really think about it because I had a lot of work to do. 

I got home one night and I saw the letter, I opened it and all I could see was the word ''abnormal''. I couldn't focus on anything else, all I could see was this word and I started to panic. I gave the letter to my mom and she read it, she tried to clam me down by saying that they didn't know what it was and so it could be nothing. 

It turned out that I had something call low grade dyskaryosis and the cells they had taken on the smear had been infected, they didn't know how many cells were effected tho.

The letter said they had booked me an appointment for a coloscopy which is a very big word for a magnifying glass, it gives the doctor a better view of your cervix, to see how many of my cells were infected, and which treatment I would need to sort this out. 

There were three out comes of this procedure, CIN1 where only a small amount of cells are infected, they can sometimes leave these to sort themselves out as the body will fight off the infection by itself. CIN2 mean a little more cells are infected and I may need treatment, CIN3 means a lot of my cells are infected and I would defiantly need treatment to remove the infection. What I would like to point out now is that this is NOT a sign that I have cancer, it is a sign of cells that can possibly develop into cancer, the doctors are not looking for cancer just things that could possibly lead to it. 

I am not gonna lie, I was petrified, I have never been so scared in my life, and the weeks leading up to the coloscopy were some of the worst of my life. 

On the day I went to the Womens hospital in Birmingham, and was shown into the room by the nurse, I was put into this big chair, with stirrups in, I put my legs on them and lay back, the chair lifted and to be honest the only thing I was thinking the entire time was ''OMG everyone in this room can see my foof right now''. 

The nurse was lovely she was asking me normal question but was also talking me through what the doctor was doing. Then out of no where the nurse said ''Ok the doctor is going to take a biopsy now'' my heart sort of skipped a beat, I had no idea he was going to take a biopsy, and it scared me so much, the nurse told me I would feel a pinch, and the first time they did it, it was just that sort of like having a needle prick but obviously in a more sensitive place. 

Ok so this may put a few people off but please don't let it this is just my experience. The next biopsy was totally different, I wasn't prepared for it and it was a shock and felt so much more painful then the first, imagine about 3 needles all in one spot, it really did hurt, at this point I ended up jumping and then nurse sort of had to grab me and calm me down and tell me it would be ok. Of course all I was thinking was 'ye right easy for you to say I bet no one has shoved a needle in you foof before!' But of course I was polite and just sort of winced at her.

Once it was over they put this mustardy colour paste there to stop any bleeding as it recovered itself. 

The doctor told me that I would be fine to return to work and that I would get some pain that was like a period pain and that I should just take my normal pain relief. 

The next day was uncomfortable but I took my pain killers and it seemed to ease off. The Friday tho it sort of hit me like a truck, I went into work and ended up crying in front of one of the girls I work with, when the other team leader came in she said for me to phone the doctors since I might have an infection. 

That afternoon I went into the doctors and she said that my cervix may have gone into shock because of what it had happened, since the cervix is the most sensitive part of my body, she told me I need to rest and relax, she gave me a week off work and some antibiotics, since it turned out that yes I had an infection, and said if the pain hadn't gone by three days later I was to go in and see her. 

Tomorrow is the last day I am to take the antibiotics and I am still in a little pain, not as much as I was but still in pain. 

I was told I was going to hear of my test results in the next couple of weeks and I'm not gonna lie I am so scared, it is like being at the top of a cliff and not knowing whats gonna happen, its that scared feeling you get when someone says 'we need to talk' I constantly have a lump in my throat and I know it wont go until I hear back. 

The reason I have written this blog is because I want to make all girls aware that this is something that can happen to anyone. I am 26 years old I should have gone to my first smear last year and I didn't and I was an idiot because of it. 

September is Gynecological awareness month and I am wanting to raise as much awareness as possible. 

There is a campaign going on at the moment called #nofeargosmear 

below are a few links to look at :




Please Please girls if you are in the age for your countries to go get this done then please do, if you are younger but you think there is a problem go and see your doctor, they will not judge you or make you feel silly. They are there to help us, so please girls go!!!

Love you lots 


Primark Haul

Primark Haul 

Hi Everyone 

Well today I have been a bit of a busy bee, I got up early (mainly because of this weather) and went into town, and raided Primark. So I thought I would show all you lovely people what I bought.

The Primark I went into is the one on New Street in Birmingham City Center.

Ok so the main reason I went in was to get a couple more tops for work but then I was distracted by the make up haha, so here are a few things I bought : 


So the first thing I saw was this brow pencil (top picture), I have never really been a brow kind of girl, I only ever pluck I never fill in or anything, but I have been looking into it and I think its time my eyebrows got the same love any attention the rest of my face gets haha. It was £1.50 and I have it in the Light colour. 

So as well as my Paris obsession I have a little thing for nail  varnishes (bottom left). I am very much into my pastel colour's at the moment and I am wearing a pastel purple currently, but I saw this hot pink and fell in love with it. It isn't actually called Hot Pink it doesn't have a name but I loved it and had to have it and for £1.00 it was a bargain, I will post pics of me when I put it on and how you how it is when it is on.

The third make up item I bought is a Lip crayon (bottom right), I have previously used Primarks lip stain and I loved it, so when I saw these I thought ooo give these a go, I got it home and tried it and it is so good, it goes one like an actual crayon, it is a nude colour with glitter in it and it surprisingly lasts a while, it doesn't make your lips feel sticky, and I don't know about other people but I sometimes find lip glosses can feel a little heavy (if that makes sense) and this one feels soc light I love it, it comes in different colours but I was looking for something very nude. It is £1.50 

Make-up Brushes 

Ok so first things first I want to say that I am I not trained in beauty I only use what I like and works for me, sometimes I use things differently but what I do works for me. 

So first thing I bought was a powder foundation brush, I already have my liquid brush I just needed a new powder one, I love this because of the pink at the top, yes silly reason to love it but oh well. Once I got it home and opened it I realised how soft it is and is so nice and this was £1.50.

The next brush I picked up was this eye shadow concealer combi brush, the concealer I use is L'oreal and so it has a brush but I needed a new eye shadow brush to use on the crease of my eye to help blend so I loved this when I saw it, this brush is only £1. 

So as well as going to Primark I also went to poundland yesterday (oh yes I'm a big spender haha). I saw this angled brush and I have always wanted one so I got this too.

Other Stuff ...

I love jewelry I really do and because of me finger size I can never find rings that fit me but these are a god send I love them and I love the colour very girlie and cute, the are £2 for 6, the four rings in the middle I am using as thumb rings, but the two either side I am gonna use on my middle finger. I love these so much and cant stop wearing them. The thing I love the most is I wore these most of the day and I haven't got that nasty green line where I have been wearing them so these are my good buy. 

These I am in love with, I have always wanted fairy lights in my room, I love them and so I saw these and I love them, they look like little chandeliers, they are so cute and sweet, they are battery operated so if you want these make sure you have a lot of AA batteries at home or you pick some up. They are £3 and are currently over my bed and wrapped around my canvas picture. and are so sweet. 

I saw these right at the end of my shop and I had to have them, I am a huge fan of slippers, I did have some Tinker Bell slippers but they have fallen apart and I think these are just so cute, they have a knitted effect on the outside and are so fluffy and soft on the inside, and you cant see but underneath they have 'Love to Lounge'' written on them, and these were £3. 

The last thing I bought was also from poundland, there are 3 vacuum storage bags and a storage box for them. I have a lot of stuff in my room that I like and I want to keep but no room for them, like extra blankets for winter or my unused bedding, and these are amazing for them, the large on is very large, i didn't realise how big it was, but i did need all three and they are now all tucked away vacuumed to within an inch of there lives haha. 

New Place For My Blog

Hi Guys and Girls

Ok so I had a bit of a melt down and totally forgot all my details of my last blog and couldn't get back onto my other one, so I deleted it all and I have decided to start a fresh.

I will be putting up all my other blogs on here so I have them still just all fresh and new and new plan to start blogging more.

I know I keep going on the missing list but I have had a lot on but I think blogging will help me get me back on track with my life and it also gives me a place to write everything down and get it out my head. 

So I have a lot of things planned and I have actually written quite a lot just need to start publishing them. So I will be adding the entries from my last blog and then I will be going on to things like :

                                   A Perfect Relaxing Night Alone 
                                   Make up : How I Store Mine 
                                   Body Confidence : My Body Issues 
                                   My new Favorite Shop 
                                   Long Distance : How To Cope When You Live Apart 

And much more. 

Well I hope you like me new home and I hope to hear from you call lovely people, I will be adding my Instagram and Twitter on here soon so follow me on those and you can keep up with my day to day

Love you lots guys 
Lottie Xxx